If you wanna go and take a ride with me...

Oh man. I never realized how much I love Cul kids. We stayed after class helping Kenisha with her cinnamon rolls and we all just kinda busted out in ridiculous ninty's songs. Hey! Must be da monayyy.

Yeah that's right. Haha. :]

Today the sun was shining [for the majority of the day] and that was pleasant. The sun makes me happy. I felt better today. I could breathe. I smiled. I was social. I was sunny with a high of 75. [thank you RK!] It was refreshing. I felt like me. Maybe I can take the band-aids off.

I rode to school with Dev. We talked about how we shouldn't go towards the dark dreary direction, because honestly, who wants to save the princess? There are usually dragons residing over there. We have bizarre conversations, and the great part is we are completely sober. I love it. :] I never realized how close I was with him. I actually told him my stupid story. I've told about four people, cuz it makes me cry. And I almost cried, but totally didn't. I think it was because I had Taco Bell, and that makes me feel better too.

I had a quick wifey with Jaylene today. :] Alisa joined us. Haha. It was delightful. I miss Jay. She had to go to class. Sadness. Alisa and I wandered about RCC, cuz we'd never been on it really. Then we went to the Tyler mall. It was lame and fun? Haha. Go figure.

Baking was boring. Chef Bobby talks. A lot. But he's kinda funny, so it's all good. Then Melissa did the muffin demo, and messed them up. Honestly, how do MUFFINS end up tasting like Corn Bread? Reallyyyyyyyyyy.

I dunno. That about sums it up. :D Smile kids. It's almost Tuesday.

I have no idea.

Gnarly.

I had a matter of things to discuss, and now I'm terribly tired and can't recall any of them.

I can actually breath better today. The pressure in my chest isn't as bad; I think that is a good sign... Still sucks. Really suckssss.

Oh, bittersweet irony.

I'm not sure why it always goes downhill
Why broken cisterns never could stay filled
I've spent ten years singing gravity away
But the water keeps on falling from the sky
And here tonight while the stars are blacking out
With every hope and dream I've ever had in doubt
I've spent ten years trying to sing these doubts away

But the water keeps on falling from my eyes
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my lord! to suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away
So blood is fire pulsing through our veins
We're either riders or fools behind the reigns
I've spent ten years trying to sing it all away

But the water keeps on falling from my tries
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my lord! to suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away
A lie to run, it would be a lie
It would be a lie to run away
It keeps on falling
Water keeps on falling from my eyes
And heaven knows, heaven knows
I tried to find a cure for the pain
Oh my lord! to suffer like you do
It would be a lie to run away

Just to Let You All Know,

My best friend totally owns your best friend in the face.
Even if she is a little skanky.

Just kidding.
I love her more than Taco Tuesday.

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I fathomed a whole spiel on my drive home from Riverside and now I don't care to express any of it, though I should.

I cried on the way home from saying good-bye to Matthew. I think we all did. I drove the majority of the drive with my windows down. The cold was refreshing for once, almost calming, until I started shivering so badly I could hardly sit. My jaw aches from clenching my teeth so tightly. Sadly, it was the only thing that kept me focused though. Unfortunate. The silence in the car was unbearable, and the radio noise was harsh. I did hear two decent songs on my venture home. Now, I can't remember the lyrics to the one. Epic failure. My delightful evening ended in a bittersweet fashion.

I find the rain to be ironic. I really am hoping that it's gone by the time I wake in the morning.

This is pitiful. The ramblings in my head were far better.

I don't even care. I hope I remember to print my homework in the morning. Ugh.

Cavernous.

Today was the first real day in Arizona. We had arrived here last night after a outrageously long drive. Hah. I'm pretty sure I slept the first half and then spam texted the remainder of the drive.

Anywho, today we had a lovely adventure on Route 66. Went to the Keepers of the Wild... That was neat. Didn't expect it to be; I was actually really skeptical of it when we pulled up. I mean, it was two mobile homes on a patch of dirt nestled between a couple of rock formations. Woo, right? The lady in the first mobile was kinda pushy, and there were random overly priced souvenirs everywhere. We paid what was asked, they handed us some maps and gave us some lime-green wrist bands, and we were on our way.

Immediately we saw tigers. OMG right? Yeah. But it's not that we just saw them, we were like seven feet away from them. It was astounding. They had quite a few animals that they had rescued. It was really cool. The white Bengial Tiger was my favourite. His name was Sebastion. I wanted to pet him. Haha. I took about two-hundered and fifty photos, at least.

After we finished our tour of the wild life preserve [there were more than just tigers - Lions, Monkeys, Wolfs, ect] we got back on Route 66 and drove even more. Haha. We did drive though Peach Springs, which was the model for the movie Cars. That was neat, seeing as Disney totally copied this town to almost a tee. We eventually ended up at teh Grand Canyon Caverns [which, was about a two-hour drive short of the Grand Canyon]. We pulled up to this weird motel thing and then followed some old-fashioned signs for another mile until we reached some Curio shop. It was nearly deserted and there were more overly priced gifts. Hah.

We waited around for the tour to start and then the man summoned us to the elevator that would take us to the caverns. It was so bizarre, taking a journey in an elevator to the center of the earth. Well, not the center persay, but twenty-one stories down. It was nuts! It was so pretty, being surrounded by all this crystal and formations. It was so huge in there, it was kinda crazy. Just imagining how so much exsists outside of the normal eye-line. Very cool.

I am so tired. This time change totally messed me up. Or maybe I just don't get enough sleep. Either or.

Truth be told I am lying.

Hmm, what is the purpose of a lie? To cover up what you don't want others to know. Could it be mistaken as a secret, because in essence, it's the same. Just something to chew on I suppose.

I'm going to Arizona tomorrow. For about four days. Four very long days. I mean, I am excited, more or less, but come on. Menifee is bigger than Kingman. Pathetic. It's going to be such a fun drive. Six hours in my father's F-150. Joyous.

No, I am pretty stoked. I get to catch up on my sleep, hopefully. Do some homework, in theory. We're going cave exploring and supposedly going to some Wild-Animal Park. I had no idea Arizona contained such wonders. Haha....

I'd also like to reitterate the fact that I detest iTunes. Just throwing it out there. Again. I plugged in my father's iPod to charge it and add a few more songs, but no. Instead, I got to spend the last three hours importing the SAME CD's from the previous evening because iTunes felt the need to remove them from the Shuffle. WTHell? Yeah. [I had deleted the originals from my desk-top, but still, it's NEVER done that before] I'm annoyed to say the least.

Moving on. A spider bit my face. It hurts, it's bruised and pretty swollen. I don't appreciate spiders either. Haha.

I just realized how awful I sound, whining about things. I'm really not so whiney, it's just been a strenuous week...

On a positive note, I ran two miles today. That was exciting. And I made some tasty hard rolls. Go me. I think tomorrow I shall do my Consumme, granted I have enough time.

We went to Disneyland last night... It was, uh, interesting. No comment.

I think I'm done fiddling with iTunes for the night. That's as good as it's gonna get... Plus I woke up at FIVE this morning to go to freaking Denny's for the free breakfast. So much for that. Haha. It was quasi-refreshing to be up that early in the night, yes, night. If it's dark out, it is not the morning! But Marci, Arlene, Devin and I had a nice breakfast at Carl's Jr, which was across the street from the second Denny's we had gone to. It pleased me that we all ended up ordering lunch food at about six in the morning. I love thos kids.

I should probably put my stuff out so my mum can put it in the suitcase. Wow, I almost put "sootcase". I need to go to sleep.

The Beginning.

Here's to the first blog of the year I suppose.

I seem to be on an All-American Reject high. I find it better than a drug [not that I'm able to really reference], but you know what I mean. Just sitting and enjoying decent music in a world that's not always so decent.

I think it's safe to say I'm tired, so forgive me if this blog isn't all that coherent.

I've discovered that I am good at over-analyzing a situation. I have no reason to. I warned myself not to get my hopes up, in efforts of being let down... So much for that. Though it may be to early to actually call it, but I am almost positive that yet again, history will repeat itself. Unfortunate. Very, very unfortunate.

I'm perplexed as to why I cannot gain access to G-Mail on FireFox. I detest using IE, but I suppose one does what they have to when they need to use their email. Pathetic.

I'm going to bed. Oh, and along with detesting Internet Explorer, I have discovered that I loathe iTunes and it's lack of cooperation. Yeah, that's right.

Good night.